I was born in the dark

These last 5 years I wasn't sure if I was going to make it. At times I thought it'd be easier if I was dead.

My path has been a rocky one but connecting the dots looking back I see it was the only way to become the potential that I imagined.

There was a lot of confusion, why is my life like this, why is nothing working out. It was like that because I had put myself in those situations and I wasn't doing enough to change it.

The pain and suffering and stress was like a fire burning pain, weakness, and uncertainty out. It's revealed what is there also equanimity, acceptance, strength and certainty.

The growth and strength and wisdom was a byproduct of the darkness I passed through. A part of me died and out of the other side something new emerged.

“The Darkness”: Will I ever figure this out?

2 choices: end it all or improve and get better until I figure it out. Because I chose the latter I have nothing to lose, in a way, I'm already dead.

To figure what out? Ever make it to the life I dream of, provide for and create my family, spend my life fulfilling my purpose and doing what I love.

There's a force pushing me toward this direction and what matters more than anything in life is figuring out how "Landon" is equipped to make this happen.

If I was going to make it wasn't going to be enough to hear and regurgitate universal truths, they were going to have to be lived and I was going to have to become them.

The 3 keys to pulling myself out of this Darkness:

1. The darkness made me stronger. I learned to be able to manage my states. For an example when you’re broke it’s easy to get down and live in scarcity. The gift was learning I can be whatever I choose to be: can be abundant no matter what. This applies to all the polar energies. Cold can be turned to hot with increasing energy in the system, same applies to sad - happy, depressed - expressed etc.

2. Create something. Art. Soul. Creating. Creation. My life didn’t have enough soul. We get sucked into routines, and the faucet of creativity that is direct access to our soul gets clogged. When you imagine something, anything, could be creating a family, a business, art, music and then you create it you are bottling a force that compound and can get you out of any rut.

3. Have some practice that emboldens your relationship with a higher power. Surfing, camping, meditating, church, serving others, those are what works for me. You need to figure out what works for you. And my 2 cents: the more of them you do, the more time you “spend time with Him” the better

Of all the things I’m grateful the darkness taught me is that I've “made it” as soon as I'm certain I'm going to make it.

That's how I live now. That’s what I hope I can share with others in the darkness.

I'm a thinker and my thinking is so that I find the truth, my purpose, and my source.

Here is found serenity and certainty.

My purpose is to help bring others of his children out of the darkness and help them feel more connected.

The LostYouth community is committed to helping each other escape each individuals darkness they each have to journey through.